I am seriously going to murder LifeCast.

I hope it realizes this means deletion!
God dammit, I've tried to post three different entries for the past 4 days! Not acceptable.
I'm just going to copy down the one I wrote yesterday (with things I've just added) and then I'm off to go do homework and find a new blogging app. Here we go:


So I'm sitting here watching my pumpkin cookies bake and I figured I had the time to discuss a couple of things and update this blog over the lovely aroma wafting over from the oven. (side note: this was me yesterday baking, not today, I'm blending entries)

Firstly, I would like to address my state of mind at the moment. Currently, despite recent events, I can pretty much consider myself to be happy. I had a previous blog entry all typed up about this, but, LifeCast is a bitch and won't post anything. My newly increased happiness index can be attributed to a couple of things:

1. Rediscovering the things that made me, well, me. Primarily this addresses music. I've been re-listening if you will, to my indie music and falling in love with it all over again. Due to a recent not so pleasant conversation on the matter it had been brought to my attention how mainstream scene my music taste had gotten. To be honest, this quite perturbed me. It also led to a cold front in a fledging friendship, but that is a whole nother issue in itself.
   
2. I've become a blunt, bashing, gossip whore again. Now, you might say, "Marisol, how in the world is this a good thing?" to which I have absolutely no answer. However, I will actually amend the gossip whore statement to say "gossip enthusiast" and by this I mean: I hear it, I discuss it, I share it with a select few, but I don't go spreading it around to everyone I know like some other people. To address the bashing thing, basically this refers to my revamped running inner and outer monologue consisting of the discussion of others in a rather snarky manner. I suppose this equals "bad juju" in the eyes of those who believe in such things to which I can only reply to with a very mature : I don't give a shit. Me is me is me is me, take it or leave it, judge it or love it.
   
3. Other things that will not be mentioned at this time until they have been better formulated and thought out.

Secondly I would like to take a moment to say: I HAVE THE BEST BESTFRIEND IN THE WORLD. Honestly, she loves me even though I'm emotionally retarded and not very comforting when approached for consolance. Plus, who else would be up at two in the morning with me playing the Cyberchase Quest on the PBSkids website with me? :]

Thirdly, I won't address the affor-alluded to drama directly as I don't think that would be the proper way to handle things, especially not through an open viewable to the public blog. I will however say that this whole ordeal has left me: shocked, extremely dissapointed, angry, and a whole array of other such emotions.

Lastly, I leave for Peru on the 16th, next tuesday. There might be and M&M-Hot-Cholate-Christmas-Movie-Extravaganza this coming weekend, but it is not certain. Regardless of this there will be some sort of M&M reunion, even if it is just limited to the two holders of the M&M nickname.


It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas........


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